Family

I never really go into my personal life on this Blog in regards to family, whether they are blood or by marriage I truly believe family is family no matter how screwed they are. I say screwed because as I am learning quickly in my final year of school, no one is perfect as well as no situation.

With split parents I would describe two very different family units, on the paternal side there is love just raw love. No matter who it is they will insist of our family ties, we are all so different but when a holiday rolls around no one is missing without a decent reason. My maternal side family isn't blood related, in fact it  is actually by the marriage of my mother to my step father that has brought us all together. This family is filled with skeletons, uneasy feelings, and greed. It's an intense story to tell but none the less they are family.

I don't know where I was headed with this post, I think that my unexpected snow week I had a good chance to reflect on my family visits and our different dynamics along with upcoming Thanksgiving. What I am overal trying to get at is friends can be fake, husbands and wives can leave, break ups happen everyday but family is family no matter how angry you get at each other.

I should mention to conclude this post, I am not out to the majority of my family. Mainly because I haven't found a good person that is important enough to make me want to, though I was close with Ti. You all know where that got me.

A Ducky Time & Just A Kiss

A ducky time? Yeah that's exactly what I said greetings from Duck, NC! Family vacation day 3- I finally have found a few moments to write. Frankly the truth is I have been feeling over inspired for days, I have a new muse and want to share her with the world, not yet. Anyway with my creative juices flowing I spend my mornings running and clearing my mind from the late night conversations that have turned my frown upside down, it's soon and I know I am in no shape to jump back into the grind of lesbian dating but, frankly I don't plan on venturing to the shark tank anytime soon. Right now I am content, right now I am happy, right now she is her and I am me and one day together we will be unstoppable.

This morning I surfed for the first time in a while I love it, the feeling like you're flying, the end on the wave and the first feeling of your feet on the sand after the perfect ride on a perfect wave. I was literally emotionless this morning all I had was the wind, water, and sun beating on me so perfect so free. Beyond surfing there has been plenty of family bonding and lame adventures that in the end make this whole week more worth it then anything money could buy. Tuesday we plan on taking a Jeep adventure to see the wild horses, I am so excited it will be another thing off my bucket list and a dream I have held for many many years.

Life is really treating me well, I do apologize to this all over the place post but there is so much to say but not enough time for me to write or you all to read. Soon, with time you will know about the many dreams of mine coming true, the cause of my silly smirks, and the life desicisons that in recent weeks have changed my life. Until then stay ducky!

A Dose of the Truth

I am okay, surviving and trying to love the life I have been given. Going home for the past two days was a harsh dose of reality, in all honesty this whole week has been. Let me lay this out for you.

1. My brother (15) has something going on, bad. My mom says he could be suicidal.
2. My girlfriend's unresolved issues with her ex have been buzzing around my head since I called her on it, it's haunting me, the whole conversation.
3. Mom is burning out, hmm wonder why.
4. Step dad is truly getting tired of the shit, no more divorces.
5. Step Mommy Bitch Face should watch her step, she is treading lightly these days I am locked, loaded, and ready.
6. Daddy Dearest cut me off, "You're 21, in college basically you don't need money."
7. Gala is Friday, college prom. Fuck. Guess who doesn't have a table.
8. My other half is still in Texas, chances of me getting down there for graduation slim to none.
9. School work is building, 5 week freak out.
10. Summer is around the corner, should I be excited or scared.

All in all like I said, I am fine but stress is building. I really which I had more time right now to write all of this down. I am trying to blog daily and failing miserably. I promise not to leave you guys too long, seriously.

Still looking for that full body suit.