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Alas, starring at the blank screen on my Blogger account. No excuses I haven't written I know. I should make excuses, I should write more, after another couple crisises and more sleepless nights. So why haven't I written you may ask? Again I have the ever lasting issue, too many read my Blog at least from my personal life. Honestly I do like it, most of the time.

It's hard though where do I draw the line between spilling my heart, and censoring myself for the sake of my flakey friendships, the endless college drama, and my good hearted girlfriend. I have written about this some many times previous really, however this time I am really feeling it, and it's beginning to hit hard. There are so many things I want to say. I feel like I need to say but at the end of the day, I created this monster (of giving my URL out) and now I have to fix it.

Long story short on my hectic life last night was hard, finals week is fast approaching followed bye too many goodbyes and a hell of alotta tears. No one here is looking forward to it, and everyone is on edge. I have made a couple new friends and sealed a bond that I think is going to last, maybe I will talk about this.

Enter Camera not her real name but she'll figure it out (after I tell her). She's been around over the years never a close friend but always a good source of the latest and greatest. She was willing to listen rather than lecture when my life fell to pieces. She dated A once upon a time and now she is securing her spot in my top 10 (throw back) thank god because life has been a little less dull thanks to this kid.

Camera introduced me to my Kate (name given in relation to the obsession we share with the soon to be princess) she is truly a gift. Kate and I understand each other, we have very similar living situations and I have been able to open up to her lately, more so than I ever have with any new kid in my life. Kate and I spend a lot of time together but what I love about her is the lack of guilt she throws my way if I need a T.O. from life for a day and don't get to hang out. She gets me.

Kate has a large group of friends as well, "The Followers" most I like there are a couple loose ends I could do without but I like them all for one reason or another and they have been nothing but welcoming to me. This feeling of being welcomed really truly is something new to me, looking at my life now I am assured to have a great SENIOR YEAR in school.