Cue the Light Bulb

Sometimes life sends me in weird directions (pretty much always ass backwards), they always pan out slowly and I think they are funny. Today I got more perspective on this, more than ever before I was so STRONG. I don't normally preach lately I see myself doing it more (I'm working on that by the way). Anyway, strength is a funny thing but I am crediting myself today with the most strength I have ever had.

Paths are funny things, ever since I have been at school this year there has been turmoil on my path. I had thought about changing course multiple times but with things good with A, and SC finally happy I figured life was getting better just slowly and I needed to be patient because as good as it has been there is one person it's not been good with, one last loose end.

M sat across from me at lunch, she was talking about me and blatantly criticizing me (ouch). I was sitting there seething. Frankly I was pissed, wicked pissed. The old Meg would have jumped on the opportunity to bitch her out and cause a scene similar to something from Mean Girls (bus and all). But I looked across my table instead and I saw SR+CC then I looked to my left and Ti was there with me, I realized something so huge.

Cue the light bulb, seriously bear with me.

M was spending her lunch worrying about me, and my world. She was so fixated on me that she almost pulled me in to her misery AGAIN. But me? I was spending lunch with my friends and girlfriend. I am happy, there is nothing in my life to worry about for the first time in a long time my life was calm, I am at peace. So why ruin it.

By George I got it, this 21 year old just had the epiphany of the century.

So instead of screaming and yelling, instead of causing a scene, instead of more drama, I ate my pizza (it was good)! Applause for me. Because today I had the strength to move past the hurdles someone constructed. I am unfazed finally. Watch out dark drama filled underworld. This chubbie chick is coming out and NEVER going back.

Lesson #62 - Worry about you.