Thunderstorms

I don't know why I titled this thunderstorms, it might have something to do with the way the skies opened up about 5 minutes ago and is currently emptying itself. Boyfriend and I hadn't really seen each other up until last night when he kidnapped me and took me on a little journey to the fire department. At first I thought it was totally stupid, like the fire house in the middle of a cow field is not romantic but after giving it a chance it kind of in it's own way was. We snuggled a bit and listened to the scanner for our county occasionally asking each other things, that's when it happened.

Laying there he asked what stereotype I would fit into best and that's when I finally said it. I said I was the typical all women's college stereotype he gave me a funny look and I said it- "I was a LUG" (Lesbian until Graduation) and he said okay and changed the subject. Was that me secretly admitting it to myself- that I'm not cut out for women, or was it the beginning of another long self discovery period figuring out what I like.

I was shocked at myself that I couldn't honestly say one way or another. I have said for weeks that I didn't know what I was doing but do I? The thing is I love women sexually and, physically I connect with them. But looking back I can not do another breakup like Ti, and I never want to. So is that the answer was my break up with Ti the final straw am I straight? For someone who had my shit altogether tied up in a bag and finally moving on, I think I might have opened a whole new garbage bag of issues.

P.S. Stalk some blogs today kids- after all it's Friday thanks to my favorite pregnant lady there are some good ones linked up!