Acceptance

I am accepting your flaws. I am going to let it go. You are not the enemy. I am happy. You are happy. We are not we, and us is no longer an acceptable pronoun. I was angry. I was hurt. I was a lot of things. Now I am done. When I look at you, I want to vomit I am really going to try not to do that anymore. You are you and I am me. My life is valuable to me and I really am only going to get one so from here on out this is my new thought process.

I am me, I know I am a good person. I hold the key to the secrets of 100 humans and I will never let them go. When I am old and gray I won't regret my life, when it flashes before my eyes I am going to laugh and cry at the same time. It's about time I speak up for me, after all I am worth it. College is supposed to be a time to figure oneself out however, I know who I am. Thus, I am ahead of the game and I need to accept that one day people will catch up to me and until then I will do what I always do, figure it out.

Taking life one step at a time is something I preach, but I can be a hypocrite. I am a planner, I want to know the future and what it holds for me. From today forward I am trying something new, or well I am going to try and see what happens. It's going to be hard, but I am strong and more likely than not I can handle it.

So I forgive you. I accept your poor choices it's your life. Most of all one day I will look back on our friendship and be able to laugh like I used to, when that happens I'll be the first to tell you. These are in full my well wishes.

Chubbie Chick Lesson # 44 - I want nothing but the best for you.