Human

Let me introduce myself. Hi. I'm a human. I have feelings and needs. I care what people think and strive for greatness. But you don't make this easy for me. You call yourself my friend. My best friend. But let me just tell you something. Friends don't make friends feel shitty. Best friends are there. Most of all PEOPLE care.

Okay vent session? I have been abandoned. It's the worst feeling in the world. I don't have a person to care for my well being within ten miles of me. I am living in a nightmare that I can't wake up from. I have no idea where I am going, or how to fix myself. My choices- treat her the way she treats me, show her how I feel when I am outcasted and unloved or just fucking let it go because I need someone in my life I need someone to help me. But she isn't helping, and further more she doesn't deserve me. I am a great, no awesome person. Why can't people see this. Why can't I seem to find a friend. Abandonment is starting to effect me more than I let on. I can not do this.

Things school wise aren't much better. I need to get out of this place. I need to run away. I want to but where can I go. My mistakes have officially out weighed my accomplishments. I'm lost and stranded. What am I going to do. No one sees that i'm screaming for help on the inside. But I am. I need help. I'm so lost. I can't do this. After all I am just a human, with no help. No love is getting worst by the moment. I am starting to feel sick. It's official I can not survive this on my own. Guess it's time to call mom and tell her how bad it is. Disappointment nice to meet you.

Chubbie Chick Lesson #35 - This is too much. Just try to survive this.