Today I am substituting in a local district around the area where I grew up, many of the students I am seeing in my eleventh and twelfth grade classes were freshman while I was a senior at their rival district, wow three years. Looking back three years ago, to be honest I was a different person; I was obsessive about the numbers on a scale, driven to the point of insanity by graduation, and living the moments I miss the most now, on fast forward then because I so desperately wanted to grow up. I made my fair share of mistakes that year, none more so then rushing my last year with 79 of the closest friends I ever had away. I'll never forget on graduation waving goodbye, signing yearbooks, and speeding off into the sunset to the closest grad party that evening. Most of my class I never saw again, some I see now and then but after exchanging pleasantries we realize we are total strangers now and part ways. Maybe all of this is one if the I chose teaching, or maybe it really is "the calling" everyone else says.
I am in a sole searching mood, l feel like I'm beginning to rush again but the difference is I know now how ready I am to begin my life, but as ready as I am I am terrified to begin the search for grad schools and begin answering the major questions that are coming. All of this said I guess I need to slow down a little, and just relax after all this time tomorrow I'll be back at school, with my girlfriend, everything will be right with the world again.
Chubbie Chick Confession #53 - Slow down, enjoy the ride. No regrets.
Touche! You need to go to Hawaii! They are on Hawaii time all of the time. You are on time when you are 10 minutes late! ;-)
ReplyDeleteLove this post! I agree... sometimes I speed through life; but that's why I want to move to Oregon. I want a new fresh life that I can relax and write!!! That's awesome you are a substitute teacher. Cute.
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