Fireworks

What a two weeks it's been, from Duck NC to Vermont and back I have spent more time away from home than I have in months. After a whirlwind camping trip I took a small vacation to see my girlfriend for the weekend and for the first time ever, got to have a glimpse into her life before college and even meet a few friends. 

After my last relationship with Ti, I finally conquered the meeting the parents nerves and while I didn't get to meet TSwift's mom I did meet her friends. It was, well; let's call it an experience. I don't really know exactly how to feel about the situation still even after some reflection. They seem really nice to be honest I just didn't feel welcomed, and more than that I didn't feel like I belonged. That is probably the hardest this for me to ever overcome, I can fit myself in just about anywhere but with my New York accent and my homosexuality it was a no go. We talked about it briefly TSwift and I, it was a hard conversation mainly because I was hurt and didn't want to admit it was mostly my insecurities screaming. 

Moving on though we ended up having a great time watching the fireworks later that night, it was my first realization that she really is mine now, no more waiting or fighting she is mine and I am hers. Later that night too, I was counting my blessings as I feel asleep with her smiling and realized I never will try to run away ever again. I am whipped.