Together we are Apart

I have decided I am going to write a "How To:" on fighting among other things such as long distance relationships and loving your crazy partner for better and worst not because I am good at these things but because it is said "those who can't, teach.." and I couldn't for the last month.. Yeah I bet I could teach a few things all right. As always Ti and I had another long distance hair pulling contest last night, it was the worst one yet and by the end we had both scared ourselves enough to maybe, finally, get our act together.

I'm not saying we are perfect, but now more then even this summer I feel okay. I can't explain it really but I know the thought of not seeing her ever again scared the shit out of me more then anything I have ever faced. I know I need to straighten out, she knows she has to do the same.

Don't get me wrong I am by no means saying we are 100% back to us but I am saying we are finally 100% trying. I was so close to walking away, it wasn't until it occurred to me one day there would be someone else that I was literally bent over and had the permanent stick literally removed from my ass. Relief. Our next step is most positively acceptance of each others flaws and mistakes. I think for the first time in a month, hell over a month Ti and I might actually be fine.

Thus we are together and we are apart all at the same time, together we know that we love each other and apart enough that we have a chance to figure it out. Bottom line I love her, I'm not ready to lose her so now more then ever before it's time for both of our stubborn asses to work together. Finally, I want to thank everyone still reading my pathetic blog and this constant turmoil and leaving your comments and words of wisdom, I know I wouldn't have gotten to this place today with out you.

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