It's been 2 months since I last updated. I will be changing this blog a bit but continue writing in it as I planned in the beginning. My life has become something like a movie flashing in front of my eyes, I have lost all control of who I am and what I want. I broke up with S a matter of hours ago. I have yet to cry, or feel emotion of any sort. I love her, but I don't think I can anymore.. it's too much. She deserves someone who is in it for the long haul, and I can't guarantee that right now I'm twenty. I hope she will be okay, I am well aware that what I did was horrible, but right. I am a monster.

You're not a monster. You made a tough decision with your heart, and should continue to think with it: follow it, wherever it may lead.
ReplyDeleteThank you :) that's thoughtful.
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